♫ When the summer ends, ♫
♫ you have to fly toward a brighter future ♫
♫ Let the wind blow you into a whirlpool of love ♫
♫ My dear... ♫
♫ My dearest, Michelle ♫
♫ I'll learn to let myself let go and wish you well ♫
♫ Oh~ Michelle's first day ♫
♫ Oh~ You've already gone so far away ♫
♫ In the spring, we'll be ready to make trouble ♫
♫ In the fall, we'll start to reflect ♫
♫ In the times that we're hurt, we'll want to let go ♫
♫ When we're happy, we'll forget all our pains ♫
♫ In our times of success, we'll meet setbacks ♫
♫ In the midst of sadness, we'll learn to let go ♫
♫ When we feel unsure, we'll learn to be calm. ♫
♫ We'll learn to be calm. ♫
An Innocent Mistake Episode 20
It seems pretty successful, do you want to give it a try?
Tell me the story about donuts,
I'll tell you the story about milk candies, okay?
So... before I start attending elementary school,
I always thought that...
these pretty and delicious milk candies
were gifts that were mailed back home
by that dad who was too busy on the sea to come home.
It wasn't until the day before school started,
when mommy took me to buy my backpack, pencil bag,
she brought me into a particular shop.
And, right in front of me,
bought a pack of milk candies from the store owner.
The beautiful 'milk candy fairy tale' shattered at that moment.
Mommy,
afraid that I wasn't prepared to accept that the 'milk candy fairy tale' was only a story,
decided to tell me the entire truth.
I didn't have a father,
and none of my three moms,
were birth mothers.
I'm not sure if I was too stupid or loved to eat too much...
did you know? After hearing that whole entire thing,
all I did was eat one milk candy.
And then I asked mama,
"Will you buy milk candies for me anymore?"
Mama said, "I will."
And I smiled.
Your turn!
Tell me.
The first time my mom made donuts,
was the day I learned how to ride a bike.
I got a huge bump on my head.
My mom wrapped an ice pack around my head,
and made me make donuts with him.
She said it was a magical cure.
One that will turn the bump on my head into a donut,
and then eaten up.
Then the bump on my head will disappear.
I believed her magical cure completely.
So I braved the headaches, the dizziness,
and busied around the kitchen happily with my mom.
My dad
accepted his punishment alone in the yard,
cleaning it, pulling out the weeds, trimming the trees.
That night, my dad was so worried and kept asking me,
"Yu En,
do you still love daddy?
"Do you love me more,
or do you love mommy more?"
I said,
"I love mom,
don't like daddy."
My dad was so heartbroken.
And then,
to make me happy,
and regain my love, he told me
he would give me an incredible, awesome remote-controlled race car.
How I wish...
... time stopped at that moment.
I used to envy you
because you had a perfect dad.
Just like how you envied I had three moms.
You're wrong.
I don't just lack a mother,
I don't even have
a real father.
Saying that is unfair to him.
Then what is considered fair?
He's extremely guilt-ridden, really.
Can't you "put yourself in his shoes" and understand him a little?
Since when his guilt-ridden conscience after the fact of his mistake
should be understood?
While on the other hand, a child who killed his own mother
could never make up for his mistake?
For the last 10 years,
every time I fall asleep,
I'll dream of the pain of that day... Do you have any idea what that feels like?
To live like a sinner,
can you imagine what that feels like?
I want to know.
Everything that no one else knows, I want to know it all. Can you please tell them all to me?
Are you 'pitying' a sick maniac?
Could it possibly be that my dad forgot to teach you
to 'put yourself in others' shoes'?
Didn't you always detest 'pity'?
That's true. "Treat others as you want to be treated."
But I didn't know until today how noble "sympathy" truly is.
The most important thing is, what "sympathy" ultimately turns into.
Is it cold-heartedly walking away,
or holding him close and loving him dearly?
Don't think that just because you've been abandoned you can understand what I'm going through.
It's true I don't understand.
But can't I start from now on to understand you slowly?
What's wrong in starting with "sympathy" to learn to understand?
Where our final destination is in our journey together... That's the main point!
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Are you sure you're "sympathetic" towards me,
or Zheng Da Shan?
♫ If you truly love me, ♫
♫ then don't let go of me. ♫
He begged you to come, didn't he?♫ If this isn't... ♫
♫...If... ♫
♫ If you still love me, ♫
Then I thank you.
♫ how can I let go of you? ♫
Please take your high and mighty "noble sympathy"♫ Why didn't you remind me ♫
and leave together.♫ of this indescribable pain? ♫
♫ I never ♫
♫ ever expected that one day you'll actually leave me ♫
♫ I don't have the spare energy to digest heartbreak. ♫
♫ I love you. ♫
How do you take this thing off?!
♫ I miss you ♫
♫ In the end, all those who have loved before say there was never a right or wrong ♫
♫ Only those who leave are crying, unwilling to hurt any longer. ♫
♫ This will really make your heart hurt. ♫
♫ I love you ♫
Everything just now doesn't count.♫ I miss you ♫
Can we start over♫ All that should be forgotten, ♫
from now on?♫ I'm trying to blur them out. ♫
♫ Given up insisting on the last bit of self-respect ♫
♫ Only having truly loved will you understand the pain. ♫
It's started.
But where will we end up?
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Mrs. Zheng, if there's nothing else, I'll take my leave.
Then... see you tomorrow.
Wait.
Pack all these dishes and take them home with you.
The chairman isn't coming home for dinner.
But the chairman, he...
Sir, are you parking or leaving?
I'm leaving right now.
Can I disturb you and stay here a couple of nights?
You're always welcome.
However... if 'both of you' need to borrow my place,
then it might get too crowded.
Your cell wouldn't go through,
the office said you didn't go in today.
Auntie said
she didn't know where you were.
So I guessed
you would come find Uncle Mo Fan.
Thank you for being willing to come find me.
The first thing...
... I have to report to Chairman.
Tomorrow, I will submit my resignation letter to the manager,
because I want to spend these next few days,
accompanying Man Qing and her mom.
Resignation approved.
The second thing.
Earlier today,
Man Qing came to look for me again.
We talked about many things,
and "listened attentively" to each other a lot.
So,
we've decided to start over.
Thank you for your help.
I'm very happy about your beginning-- - But please let go.
Do like you would to teach me bike riding.
If you're always holding onto me from behind,
I'll never learn.
So... let go.
Let me fall on my back and the horse turns over.
Falling...
... is a requisite for learning how to ride a bike.
I came only to tell you these two things.
Nothing else.
Yu En.
I'm still learning.
Learning how to love,
learning how to be a father.
Because there was never a class
that teaches how to be a father.
Never mind how to be a 'perfect' dad.
As to 'loving'... that's even more difficult.
What kind of love is right?
What kind of love is a form of hurt?
I'm sorry.
Dad ultimately failed to learn.
But you must believe.
Dad does love you.
I'm also learning...
... "belief".
Uncle Mo Fan,
I'll head down the mountain first.
Mountain roads can be dangerous in the dark. Be careful riding down.
I will.
I know that Uncle Mo Fan
will definitely "listen attentively" to my dad.
So...
... Thank you.
What?!
I'm so sorry!
Sorry sorry!
It's okay, it's okay.
I'm here now. I'll take care of Auntie.
You sleep first.
Mm..
Sleep first. I'll wake you when I can't take it any longer.
Mmm... - Here.
And he said he would wake me up.
Then he goes and knocks out like the heavens are spinning and the earth frew dark.
These past 10 years
Every time I fall asleep,
I'd dream of the pain of that day.
Apparently, the nightmares didn't come find you last night.
I'm glad.
Mrs. Zheng, I can change it.
There's no need. Go make lunch.
Later, I need to go to the office to bring him his lunch.
Is that so? Then how many dishes should I make?
Beef with celery, broiled eggs carrots,
bean curd cake with greens, and then fry a white salmon...
but take care to store separately.
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It's nothing.
Just wanted to remind you
Xiao En, Zi En will be coming back from summer camp tomorrow.
How many degrees?
38.7
At least it went down 0.1
Her fever will be gone by tonight.
Be careful.
Watch her feet! - Got it.
Careful.
Let's go!
You two, shouldn't stay in the hospital all day.
Go out on a date.
Auntie, don't worry.
Going on dates in the hospital every day is great too.
Besides, I love watching how Man Qing looks taking care of Auntie.
Here!
This version of Zheng Yu En...
is very adorable.
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How are you?
... Perfect dad?
Don't worry. I'll take care of Yu En.
So you must take good care of yourself.
Dad, I'm home! - We're back home!! Yeah yeah yeah!
Dad! I missed you so much!
You've been good. - I missed you most!
Mm. Very good.
Dad, I know how to read the stars now. - Mm?
The teacher taught us how to read the constellations. From now on, every time we get lost, I don't have to look it up
and I'll be able to tell you where North is!
You're good.
I know how too! - Says who? You were sleeping through it all.
Was not! - Alright.
Alright you two.
Then... other than the Big Dipper, what else do you know?
There's... Cassiopeia. And the River Eridanus!
And there's Cygnus!
The teacher tells us so many stories every day!
I've memorized all of them! - That's great.
Dad, when are we going to ride bikes again?
Mom says we've been obedient so you're taking us to ride bikes.
Okay.
Dad, look! I can ride with only one hand now!
Don't do that! It's dangerous!
Next time you do that, no more bike riding!
It's fine, just be careful. Go play.
Am I wrong even like this?
I'm a mother.
Because I'm afraid my children will get hurt,
afraid they walk down the wrong path,
so I never stop 'not allowing', 'not permitting'
strictly keeping them away from harm's way.
Carefully,
planning a path where they won't get hurt.
Is this 'me' wrong?
I'm a wife.
I'm afraid of losing my husband.
I'm afraid my children lose their father.
So,
I whole-heartedly gave,
whole-heartedly protected this family.
Is this wrong too?
Zheng Da Shan,
Ask your conscience
are your feelings toward
the so-called 'perfect dad little girl'
only like that of an uncle?
I watch as you are about to sin,
watching...
... as your world
slowly collapse because of her.
Shouldn't I hold you tight with all my strength?
So
I forced you to sin first.
Because I can go to hell
but you are my children's father.
You can't.
Since you want to make up to Yu En so much,
you should let him to go Singapore with Zhong Man Qing.
Leave all this far behind.
The two of them, living happily,
stress-free.
How is that not good?
What was wrong about this plan of mine?
Because of you,
because of this family,
I dare to make deals with the devil.
But do you dare?
I know,
I know you don't.
Because,
you've never been like me,
loved deeply someone I know will never love me back.
Everything in the past doesn't count,
can we start over from now?
Got it! We need a boiled greens!
This is for which table?
That... that's table 2! Table 2!
Where's table 2?
Table 2 is... over there! There!
Table 2 there?
That's not it! - I'm sorry, it's there!- You...!
Have you been memorizing or not?
If both of you come here today, then what happens to mommy?
Mama, is in good spirits today.
She even insisted we go out for a walk. She got mad if we didn't.
Is that so?
Hahahaha!
Auntie, don't be so loud! Or else we'll be overheard.
Look at Qing Xia Ma.
A handsome guy to massage her, and she forgets the pain.
Stop laughing!!
How... are you??
Yu En and I are both very good. Please don't worry.
Don't forget, you promised me.
You MUST be well.
Stop wasting your time on Qing Xia Ma. Take Man Qing on a date.
Zhong Man Qing, I'm done using your boyfriend. Here he is back.
[How... are you?? Yu En and I are both very good. Please don't worry. Don't forget, you promised me. You MUST be well.]
Have you thought of where you want to go?
Uh.
Where to?
Back home to do the laundry.
How many spoons of detergent?
3 spoons!
Oh!
I've already mopped the floor.
Hey!
The mop has to be washed first before it can be put to dry.
Yes, ma'am.
What?
Nothing. Just...
... we're like a married couple.
Pssht.
You've worked at clothing stores before?
No,
why?
Your folding is amazing!
It's so neat!
It must be because I had to learn
how to take care of myself since I was 12.
Actually,
I had a little "perfectionist" syndrome back then.
I couldn't tolerate that the corners didn't meet,
or that the edges weren't pulled straight.
I wanted to do everything to the best.
You did a great job!
[Good boy! ^^]
Thank you, teacher.
Be good.
♫ Things as feelings cannot be forced ♫
♫ When you look back, you'll understand ♫
♫ A sea of flowers, waking to a flurry of white snow
♫ They don't exist ♫
♫ If you can swim ashore... ♫
♫ No one wants to be alone ♫
♫ No matter how strong our hearts are, ♫
♫ Humans need companions. ♫
♫ The water is warm, though the mountain is cold. Love is not unwavering, and it's hard find a satisfying end ♫
♫ Rather than feeling sadness... ♫
♫ Why not be more understanding to yourself? ♫
♫ It's fine that no one is King Kong ♫
♫ We can understand what love is ♫
♫ If we don't let go of the pain, how will we be free? ♫
♫ Life is unknown, and so it is wonderful ♫
♫ Things as feelings cannot be forced ♫
♫ When you look back, you'll understand ♫
♫ A sea of flowers, waking to a flurry of white snow ♫
♫ They don't exist ♫